Sick Of Crying,
Tired Of Trying,
Yeah I'm Smiling,
But Inside I'm
Dying.
Truth resides in every human heart,
& one has to search for it there,
& to be guided by truth as one sees it.
But no one has a right to coerce
others to act according to his own view of truth.
On the 18 may @10.30pm korang nk tahu tk sumting tk…aku da kna rasuk mcm tsunami darah aku naik..!!!damn fucking dae bagi aku dat nite..dan kjadian itu tkkn ku lupa, tap ati aku puas sgt2.…
Dat nite aku da gado bsar ngn c LELOT!!puki Nye pmpuan brani blakng je..bla berdpan puki kcot,sentel termsok..sial..aku aru alik dari library wit anakku,adit,azz n Gg..otw bck home kte pass by blk 206 blk Nye c lelot n happened 2 c die,aku juz uat bdoh n make a sarcastic face in wae mcm benci sgt2 kt die..bla da jln pass by n menuju ke crpark c lelot n kwn die pn g crpark n bising angu2 bnyk,apelagi azz suro adit pekik n sae EH KO JGN BEBUAL LA SUARA KO TK SDAP… kte juz laugh n walk away n suddenly trdngar suara mcm knal g2 n pekik n sae EH APEHAL,NI MIRA LA.. Uhh mcm scared g2 dgr aku pn jwap n sae ASSLMKUM..HAHAHA wat d hell tiz mira tink,am I scared of her upon listening to her name..!!binget sgt2 aku return n mit mira n tnye wats her motive abt sayin dat to me sdangkn aku tkde conflict wit die…
Bla da dpt mit mira n were talking abt us n nvr even bother to talk abt dat lelot,bagi aku tkde maknanye nk g bebual psl c lelot..n tis mira tinggikn suara n sae aku tk berhak nak g maki c lelot..I got d shocked of my lyfe n tink ape c lelot da g critakn kt c mira. Sdangkn wat happen antra aku ngn lelot,mira were not in d picture she doesn’t noe any story..AKU MAKI LELOT PE,APE MCM LELOT TKPNAH MAKI AKU PE.!! So aku juz diam n anggap ni smua mcm kes bdk2..sdang aku msh nga bebual wit mira,c lelot kip on terpkik2 n suro mira cpat,aku pn ckp mira juz go n sory takes up her tyme,but mira nk settlekn n lelot angu2 bising2 n sae mlas nk bual..aku ckp ngn mira c lelot ni dar dulu susah nk ajak settle,stiap kali aku kedpan pada die, c lelot larikn dri..puki Nye pmpuan tahu uat mulut tahu nk jad geng jahat,bla aku dgr aku kdpan smuka kt die,die bising2 cuma nk jwap GET LOST je kt aku n blah… skrng sape salah n tkot siak!! Bla dorng da blah aku nmpk lelot pkik2 kt mira..aku uat bdola..tiba2nye lak c lelot lag uat prangai brani blakng je n die kta aku bising bnyk n suro aku g ISAP KONEK!! Apelag darah aku up aku kjar c pmpuan mulut tkde insurance..aku kejar tap ngn cpatnye die lari dar aku..aku dpt tahan die n berdpan tap die bising2 n tk abis2 ngn GET LOST die hahaha…ni cnform2 die da story buruk mcm2 kt mira but who cares….yg penting aku mau rejam die Nye mulut n make it a lesson agar die jgn nk langgar aku lagi….tap syg aku tkdpt rejam die,c mira tahan2 aku n lagi brok smpai lak..
Puki Nye pmpuan nk tunjuk terror knon tap tk brani kdpan sial….step ckp org yg aku crita tk abis lau ngn aku,puki aku da dpan nk settlkn tap ko yg lari2 da gitu tk abis2 crita dragging psl hal ko n adit….ni antara kte knape nk drag c adit,kes ko n adit da lama abis da aku kuburkn kt perkuburan INDIA.. Bab ko kn bnyk belit mcm India n busukkn org blakng,tkde crita adakn crite…Hahahaha
Mcm ane aku tetap benci ko lelot atas perbuatan suatu tika dulu ko kutuk n hina kehidupan aku n mengatakn aku miskin tktahu malu pengemis mintk bantuan brng pasr makan kt masjid mintk tolong muis n cdc..itu aku tkkn lupa la sial…ko sndri lyfe upside down n step mane Nye kaya,lau ko kaya ko tk dudk umah rental flat ar…. Mcm aku tk pnah berkwn ngn ko n tk tahu how ur lyfe is…!!!
Tkpe ari ni ko keatas,ktawa la ko spuas puas Nye..tuhan maha nmpk n tahu segalanye..bsok2 tmpat ko ke bwh gak…aku cuma hanye mampu berdoa agar tuhan bukakkn kpala otak ko itu la pmpuan tua yg tk sdar dri die TUA….!!!!!
Yesterday aku got a shocked of my life sey…aku ternampak orang yg aku benci sg
t2 kip in cntact wit bestfren ku yg lama aku tak dgr brita die…rindu sgt2 kt c MIRA JAMBUZ dan d 1 yg ku hate tu c lelot lak,aku tkleh nafikn yg ku abit miz her but tink bck wat she had done 2 me,it rilly SUCKS..!!!
Aku ngn c lelot we had some misundrstnding n itz been dragging 4 nearly 2 yrs…n c mira lak b4 ku lozt cntct ngn die,she knew d probs I had wit lelot, everything of it she knew..hmm…sedih sgt2 n terpranjat brok ku diuatnye..dan yg menyakitkn lagi iz wen I c lelot die mcm sengaja jln wif mira rapat2 n belai2 rmbut mira..ku felt hurt of coz my bestfren nvr even bother 2 come forward n sae hi 2 me sdangkn die dah trang2 Nampak aku dpan mata…. I don care who mira cmpor or make fren wif even berkwn ngn c lelot tap atleast ingat aku yg kte dah fren for 20yrs,lag I nvr had any CONFLICT wif her but onli 2 lelot..aku nangis n sedih n tink y c lelot uat aku gini..ape SALAH aku!!! Juz bcoz psal c ADIT ko nak dengki aku mcm gini…ko tahu pe yg aku tak langgar ko,wat I noe ko da BREAK ngan c adit for 2 mnths n ko move on ur life wit other GUY aru aku come into adit’s lyfe…dan ku tk pham y ko tk happi sgt abt uz n kip on jad mulut tkde INSURANCE kt block ko n telling org aku rampaz adit dar ko.. Wen ko ngn adit ko yg d 1 BASTARD cinta die n had an AFFAIR wif other guy n adit found out abt ur dirty games..after 2 mnths adit being SINGLE n aku enter die Nye lyfe itu pn jad salah ke..n now aku n adit 2gether itupun ko msh kcau kte,u cntact n mit up adit behind my bck dgn alasan ckp adit, ade surat adit dtg kt add ko.. Adit mit u up without telling me n takot aku jad TSUNAMI…tp bila korng mit ko lak rapat2 wif adit n step showin ur luv n sae u miz die la, nk kn die la n yg best partnye ko busukkn my name kpada adit.. Bila adit tell me after mit ko n ku dgr mcm2,ku juz diam je..aku truzt adit..ko tk rasa ke yg ko being CHILDISH by doing all tiz. Dah la TUA 38yrs lag itu pn tak pikir. Adit lak 28yrs..hmm…
Dan skrng kes psl adit ku da tk kuasa,wat I noe im adit’s gal..I don giv a damn wif ko lelot.. Psl c mira jambu lak yg ko suceed in cucuk die into hating aku well CONGRATS…n mungkin smlam aku ngn emosi sial ku dan ku jatuh sedih n thank god ade gg my other galfren console aku yesterdae n 1 whole nite i’ve been tinking ahh ko ni bukan ape,kurang KASIH SYG n kurang KAWAN..sehinggakn kwn aku pn ko JILAT hahaha..aku tak akn rasa kehilangn coz I still got other FRENS wit me..malah aku tunggu n see SMPAI BLA ko leh kekal brkwn ngn mira..COZ aku tahu ko Nye character wise,bnyk kwn ko LARI dar ko kerna ko n datz itz y u don hav any FRENS…
Insyallah ko lihatla lelot..orng DENGKI mcm ko tk kmane idop ko..kt situ2 gak….
N anyway to u NORLELA BINTE HASHIM,
GET A LIFE..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
